I would value your support - prayers... I am entering into a long held off part of the healing process. I admit I am a little afraid. I have looked at the underlying things that paved the way for the molestation to happen. And that was hard - seeing my family, my parents in a totally different way; coming to terms with the fact that they abused me (still working on that one, actually). Getting expelled from a destructive church and coming to terms with the destructive nature of religion (still working on that one, too). Getting myself extricated from the dysfunctional family system that continued to abuse me.
But now, I must go inward again and look to the little girl that has been hiding for so long - acknowledge her, comfort her, bring her back into the light. I am going to have to face the pain and outrage of what was done.
I may not blog much for a while - I don't know.
Thanks.
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Katherine ~ I am praying for you during this part of your journey. I can't even begin to imagine how fearful you are but I am happy that you can share a small part of that here with us.
Your needs will be ever present in my daily prayers.
Lord help KG see what she needs to see and live on in your love and grace.
It can be such a dirty rotten world
Praying for wisdom and love to reign.
Walk on brave one :-)
And may I add.... bother us all you want to :-)
Katherine - I pray Father grants you peace and insight as you work through this. May you feel his arms around you, protecting you from pain and fear.
And yes, bother us all you want.
Will be praying. You are very brave to deal with these tremendously difficult things. I know how hard facing abuse is, especially abuse within your own home as a child.
I really believe Father will bless you and hold you. May you feel his love and support. Keep letting us know how you are and how it's going when you can. Lots of love to ya.
May Father drench you with his unconditional love and utter peace while you work and live through this process...
You are loved and not alone...
In Freedom, Nicole!
my prayers go with you. safe journeying. anything we can for you during this time besides prayer?
from papa-the release is worth the sacrifice.
Fare thee well, KG. I know exactly how this feels, having been there myself and it is very scary. I am holding your hand in spirit.
Katherine, I'm praying for you too during this time. I know you'll come out the other side stronger in spirit and happier within yourself.
You might be traveling through some hurt, but you won't be doing it alone. He is with you always - that's what he promised, right.
I love you and my heart goes with you. You don't even need to ask for my prayers as you always have them. I trust Papa to bless you and take care of you. He is the only one who can do this. Take care, love.
Katherine,
Yes. I will be praying for you (I mean this).
Although I personally have not been victim to sexual abuse, believe me, I have had close friends who have. I walked alongside them as they struggled and many who journeyed through the healing and recovery process.
It's a long road, but I have seen incredible healing and wholeness for these women as Father beautifully wove His Love through them. Papa sees you already, right now, as pure, clean, accepted, loved and perfect.
As for taking care of your little inner child, indeed, that's what she needs now. You are the perfect parent to her.
Blessings,
~Amy :)
http://amyiswalkinginthespirit.blogspot.com
Prayin'....remember it's His arms that keep you safe.
Guys, thank you.
KG -
I feel for you, I understand you, and I know where you are headed. Jon's right - the release IS worth the sacrifice. Don't give up, stay on the path... you will see the light beams coming through the trees gradually and before long, wide open into the open fields. I hold my breath for you as you trudge through the forest and I early anticipate you coming out the other side!
Michelle
Katherine,
You can't see my tears right now, but I am praying that your healing from the hurt is complete, and that there will not exist even one open wound, when it's all said and done. May you sense His presence walking with you every step of the way.
And yes, may you find that precious little girl from deep within. She matters, more than you were ever allowed to know. And this healing will be total and unabridged. And there is no need to fear, as He cares so tenderly for you. He will walk you so gingerly thru this process, and will never push you beyond what you are ready for.
Bless you, in this most significant part of your journey! Take His hand, and go in peace now.
Everyone, thank you.
Hmm... why is it the one thing you wish you had is the one thing you don't? I wish I had someone to just hold me while I let the pain out. Hmm... no small request, eh? I know that the Holy Spirit is the Comforter, and I am not dismissing that. I've talked to Him about it, even. But I don't see how that translates into the need for physical comfort - physical touch - with no expectations. Sigh. Why is this thing so important to me? I don't know.
Thanks for listening.
Because you want to experience a pure love that will drive out the "demons," that's why. And in a way, you are right, it would. Unfortunately none of us can give that to you. You need a deeper embrace than any of us are capable of.
But I still wish I was there to cry with you.
(sorry - typos drive me crazy) :)
KG - I think I agree with TD - we are whole people, and to wholly heal, we need to experience healing on all levels. It may be no small request, but as someone who was grateful for a friendship deep enough this week that I could act like a little kid again and crawl into someone's lap for a good cry without embarrassment - I am going to ask God to grant you this. If there isn't someone (or more than one someone) in your life already who can literally walk with you through this and hand you a new box of Kleenex when you need it, I pray that they will come soon - and that you will recognize them for who they are, and be willing to risk and trust.
love to you.
grace and peace,
Happy
I second Happy's request, Papa.
Ditto.
i also request this for katherine as well, father.
and though we can't be there for you physically, you know that if you ever feel the urge, we are here to "hold you" any time you need. if you need to just bang away for awhile on some keys to get stuff out, tears streaming down your face, we're always here to listen. that's what this place is for.
always.
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