I am feeling exceptionally angry at God at the moment and basically am not really talking to him (except for the times when I forget I am not talking to him).
Just another one of those "well, you don't seem to be doing much. You could do a whole lot of things and you don't. And yeah, there's a whole lot of reasons for why you don't, and free will, and us being your hands and feet, and blah and blah and blah blah blah, but when it comes down to it, sometimes it feels like you claim the status of Father but then you just ain't there, bro. You just don't turn up. And sometimes, you let people fall on their faces so many times that in the end they fail to think you are there at all. And what sort of a father does that sort of shit?"
That sort of a mood is the mood I am in. And it stays until it goes :)
Sue - my heart really goes out to you. Thanks for sharing your heart. I have no idea what to say, only to tell you that I really feel for you and will pray that you will meet God in a truly intimate way.
Thanks, Ruth. I think I will. I think this is just a stage, you know? I will thaw out at some stage, and I imagine God will be there again for me. Strange times ...
I rather think that the kitchen of an innkeeper wrongfully accused by history of being a harlot would be a safe place to lay down my burdens and sorrows. I believe she would have a willing and patient ear, a compassionately forgiving heart, a nonjudgemental spirit, and the grace that can only come from enduring thousands of years of slander. I also think that, if I would like to talk to anyone about Jesus, it would be this grandma more than any other person in history.
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Happy ummm 29th is it? Have a great day Erin!!!
Yes....it IS the 29th. HA HA HA HA HA. I slay me.
LOL Mike :) Happy birthday, Erin dear
Thanks guys! If 40 is the new 30, then yes, I'm 29!
Dear God, please let 40 be the new 30 :)
lol
Happy Birthday Erin :-)
and
Happy New Year everyone
Hope you all celebrate in your own way and look forward to 2010 and what God has in mind for us all
Happy New Year to everyone.
I am feeling exceptionally angry at God at the moment and basically am not really talking to him (except for the times when I forget I am not talking to him).
Just another one of those "well, you don't seem to be doing much. You could do a whole lot of things and you don't. And yeah, there's a whole lot of reasons for why you don't, and free will, and us being your hands and feet, and blah and blah and blah blah blah, but when it comes down to it, sometimes it feels like you claim the status of Father but then you just ain't there, bro. You just don't turn up. And sometimes, you let people fall on their faces so many times that in the end they fail to think you are there at all. And what sort of a father does that sort of shit?"
That sort of a mood is the mood I am in. And it stays until it goes :)
Sue - my heart really goes out to you. Thanks for sharing your heart. I have no idea what to say, only to tell you that I really feel for you and will pray that you will meet God in a truly intimate way.
Thanks, Ruth. I think I will. I think this is just a stage, you know? I will thaw out at some stage, and I imagine God will be there again for me. Strange times ...
I know what you mean, Sue.
Happy very Belated b-day Erin! Hope it was a good one!!
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