"Have you ever felt that you had absolutely no business blogging, writing, teaching or for that matter even talking about anything that has to do with God. That’s where I’m at today."
I feel like such a hypocrite...
Sunday, December 7, 2008
I Feel Like a Complete Fraud
For those of you who have not read my blog recently, I am going to put one of my posts here as well because right now I need some big time prayer from you, my friends here in the kitchen.
I feel like such a hypocrite...
I feel like such a hypocrite...
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OH YEA
We are all full of shibeanits.
But the Lord loves us so much and interceds for our weaknesses.
Keep blogging friend and sharing what God has done for you.
Mike! I have been meaning to tell you this... The searching of your heart for what is real and the authentic life-changing thoughts have really touch me deeply... I want you to be encouraged because even though you may not know it, you are touching people who are seeing Father live through you in ways you can't even imagine. I know I have gone through times where I don't want to blog any more or come to a place where I have no inspiration, and that is a time of rest... But so you know, you have greatly enhanced my life and I am so glad to know you and read your thoughts that come from your heart!
In Freedom, Nicole!
Yeah, dude. Every day :) It's a voice I ignore a lot of the time because I have far too much to say, but yeah, I totally get where you're coming from.
Valorosa - what is/are shibeanits? I'm pretty sure I'm full of them, but I just wanna know what they are first :)
see, you say things like this and it makes it hard for me to keep quiet. :-)
yeah. i know EXACTLY what you're talking about. failures and victories. questions. wondering what i'm doing, and why are people wanting to know where i'm headed when i don't even know? heck, i don't even know where i AM most of the time.
but i think that's the point.
so often i worry about myself talking to people about this spiritual stuff. especially the more experimental stuff that i go on about. i mean, not everyone actually wants to take the red pill, you know?
but then sometimes i think, "but I DID." at the very least, I wanted to take the red pill. and i wish that when i had, there would have been a voice like mine talking about these things. not giving answers so i could follow them. just letting me know i'm not the only one on this road who doesn't have it all nailed down. and i'm not the only one who thinks these things.
because at the very least, then we know we're not alone. that's one of the reasons i think we've all been brought here. to remind us of that truth even when it seems, in our physical realms, to not be the case.
no offense or anything, but yours is not the voice i'm following. go ahead and take that responsibility right off your shoulders. don't know why it might be there, but it's a false worry. i don't think any of us are here, searching for the great truths about life, specifically from you. i think we're all here together because we have each been following another voice and it lead us here.
but do i think the spirit ever uses you to be the mouth for that voice? yes. yes i do. not ALL the time. but SOMEtimes...
so put the dreaded "what ifs" with their rusty razors to bed for the night. light is being sent your way tonight from all over the globe. rest well.
thanks for walking with us.
Please keep blogging or we will only have the people who are pretending to be perfect to listen to -- and you don't want to be responsible for that, do you?
Love you, sweetie.
Mike -
I completely identify with how you feel in that passage. I feel that way so very often myself - most every day actually.
Michelle
I've been thinking about what to say since I saw this on your blog.
In answer to your question: every day.
But I gave up worrying about it awhile ago...sort of like Jon said, if people are following me they shouldn't be. I'm just a messed up voice like everyone else, just trying to make my way.
I understand how you feel and I'm not you so I can't tell you not to feel that way. In the end, however, I would say I (and many of us) love your voice just like it is and you have as much business as anyone talking about God. He's a part of your life and that's all that matters. You don't have to be getting it all right, or even much of it right. That's a pharisee's way. Just be honest and the rest will take care of itself.
Tyler Dawn that's hilarious!
:) I couldn't imagine not having met you via the blogosphere. I value your input...but mostly, I value your heart.
Thanks, my friend.
Rest easy.
I appreciate your honesty...
will catch up on your blog more...love
I laughed when I read this (probably a completely inappropriate reaction) because it is exactly how I feel sometimes. Some days just get you like that. I have even written posts on my own blog to that effect then deleted them, then re-written them, then deleted them....
You can see from all the comments you're not alone. You're not a hypocrite, you just had the bravery to say it out loud.
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