I need you guys to pray for me please. I am a mum of 3 who works 4 days per week because we need the money but the truth is I hate it. I really want to be a stay at home mother most of the time and perhaps work a day or so. I get up at 5 am every day rush around get the kids to school and day care wotk till 6 or 7 come how rush around then go to bed at 10-11 exhausted and very sad.
Yesterday I had a nursing home complain and make up lies about me to my boss. I wrote an apology for something I didnt do. I feel like an idiot !
I feel like everything I do just goes wrong eventually.
On top of that I am so unsure of what God wants us to do with our lives. He seems to me to be being paricularly still and quiet.
I have long standing post natal derpession on top of it all and was babdly hurt by the established church and as a consequence take a happy pill everyday which I hate
Basically I feel at the end of myself.
Can you pray that God will clearly show us that we are on the right track.
thanks
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Hey Lou, I feel for you deeply. I know Father has a plan for you so you can enjoy your children, and your life. I will pray that Father will give you the freedom you so desire to be with your kid's and have time to enjoy what Father has given you! Many thoughts go out to you my sister!
Lou, I am praying for freedom, too. In every area. {hug}
It does sound like you have good reason to be burned out. I will pray that Papa will give you the answers you seek and also provide whatever you need. If He wants you to continue working, I pray he will give you energy and space in your schedule to keep up with the demands. If he wants you to quit working for work less, I pray he will provide for your finances.
Lou ~ Sometimes it really does feel live everything around us is turning to shit; I totally understand. I am praying that Daddy will make his presence known to you in large ways and that his peace will find you.
(((Lou)))
will definately pray for ya- love
Gosh ... and I s'pose on your days off you have to prepare everyone for the next 4 day marathon ...
Prayers for you to have strength and a change ahead. Those are long days you put in with young children.
Father give wisdom and financial guidance to slow life down a bit for this family.
I hate money being in so much control over our lives.
Peace Lou ...
God loves you
Lou, man I was in your shoes a few years ago and I can remember the tiredness like it was yesterday. So I really feel for you and have just said a little prayer for you.
For the tiredness, I would suggest you take the vitamin B injection, its a real boost for tiredness and all kinds of vitamin supplements plus other energy boosters can help.
I was so unhappy working so while you are working start preparing for the time you decide to leave. Start looking NoW for work from home opportunities. Look for other ways to suppliment your income before you quit.
I don't think working is helping you because your heart's desire is to be at home. Discuss areas where you can sacrifice and really do your research. There are even blogging jobs out there if you search prayerfully.
May God lead and direct you!
thanks so much for your thoughts and prayers It is so wonderful to have found a group of people whom I can share and feel safe with. I feel like you guys are the "church " I have been looking for all my life
Hi Lou
I don't know how you do it, to be honest :) I would be exhausted too. Praying for you.
Some day when it's not too exhausting, let's catch up for a coffee (with a much less silly bedtime :) It was so good to meet you and I look forward to it again but the last thing I wanna do is pressure you when you've got it all going on all the time.
i can't say what's going to be right for you, but i can share my own experience. my wife and i ran into this type of scenario not too long ago. (and still have to a certain extent) i basically opened myself up to allowing god to show me what was truly a NEED and what we could do honestly do without, even if we didn't want to. strange thing about us humans, but at a base level, we really don't need very much. and god knows that. so, slowly, he started showing us what we could cut out, and then we did, and then he showed the next thing, and we did, again and again slowly until we are almost at a "base level of operations", so to speak. which makes us kind of "freaks" in the american way of looking at life and success. but i'm not trying to impress americans. i'm just trying to raise the best family i can and be there for them with the most valuable resource i have. time. i work less so i can be there for my family more and sacrifice what i need to to make that happen.
i don't know if you have the ability to do that or not. this may not apply at all. hmmm. i know there are some very good books out there that you can "google" to find out how to do things for yourself much less expensively. i.e. how to make your own soap and other such things.
i know you can get to where you want to be, and i will pray in earnest that things come around. but don't forget. true change takes time. have patience. and until it changes, i will also pray for strength and joy to pervade your days and nights.
much love.
Thanks Sue I would love to do coffee. I loved the last time we met and I quite liked the late night cos it was fun
Jon thx. It is wot we are trying to do the trouble is the way the world is even the basic are expensive. We are trying to live simply, ethically and make as least carbon footprint as we can. Also we really felt when we moved here (Melbourne Aus)God wanted us to be inner city which is consequently the most expensive place to live . I think I need to espcape to the country for a weekend and just ponder on the things you guys have said. I wonder wot things are wants that I have as needs? Hmm lots to think and meditate on.
Lou -
I have been in your shoes (until recently, that is) for the past two years. Jon and Nate and Erin have held my hand through all of the struggles that you have described. I so deeply feel for you in your situation. Just feel free to share and rant and cry and laugh with the group here. It has been a complete life saver for me during all of that, that's for sure!
Michelle
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